Crap

Hei hei, so this is my first post in English......guess will be longer compare to my previous post...haha...because usually i take longer time in typing mandarin, although i still insist that mandarin will still be the best language in expressing my feelings, my thought, hehe........

Yeap, so going to start crap right now, is 1.30am in the morning and this big size piggy is still not in her bed...lots or i can say tonnes of stuffs perhaps make me a bit fruss..well..yeap..fruss... well, regarding my past, present as well as my future....

Since small, i am the good and top student in other people perspective, erm, from the record for being six years top student in primary school, as well as manage to hold those high post in club and societies, yeap, i am consider lucky, but, but, but, anyone please notice and understand my feeling, my feeling that failed to be expressed by words....ehemm......sounds emotion yea...anyway, it was over....and ya, some of those black memories i could say in primary life make me lost my thought...hmm, let bygone be bygone..cheersss..lookforward gal

Then, yea, secondary life, interesting, one word will be my my conclution yea. Sincerely, i never expect and till today its hard to believe what had happened in my secondary life...everything was out of expectation...What i really learned from these five years secondary life are the way to cope with new environment (yeap, i transfered from kangsar to sitiawan in the age of 14), the way to deal with people of different characters as well as the way to handle different situations (in debate and prefect) that really made me learn alot....ermm, i would like to express my heartfelt gratitude to those who gave me the chance, those who helped and guided me as well as those who criticised and look down on me because they made me learn and made me stronger..............

Now, am i tired???am i stress??? am i lost???

Emm, i never thought i will be where i am today, i mean preparing to persue my tertiary education oversea. I always wanted to be simple and the most important to be happy..yeap..to be happy... Sometimes and somehow i will think alot..to be more accurate, think out of the box...Maybe due to some reasons, i always wanted to achieve my best or perfect i could say, that really make me tired and feel helpless...

Oohoo, i should be grateful with what i have and where i am right now, no acuse for me to blame this and blame that anymore i guess, its really time for me to do something for my future.....choose my path.....and always remind myself, br grateful and appreciate what i have, set my aim but never forced myself to achieve my aim. Instead, sail steadily to it!!!

Life can be happy and meaningful, i do believe....fine, i know my english sucks, but yeah, finally manage to vomit out some of my thoughts...

hehe....